How should I feel?

I'm not sure if I need to put this but I will anyway. TRIGGER WARNING ⚠. A couple of years ago I fell pregnant with the love of my life. Fast forward to me being 11weeks and I started spotting. I called the hospital and an emergency doctor was sent out to me. I was then given an appointment for the next morning for a scan. At the appointment we were told that our baby no longer had a heart beat and that I was miscarrying. I was then booked in for an appointment the next day to have the fetus removed. The loss of our baby really hit me hard. It was the second time (the first time I passed the fetus and seeing it was too much for me) and I was also barely holding it together as a result of being weaned off of some medication I had been on for a while prior to my pregnancy. I just wanted it over with and I admittedly shut off from my fiance. I went through with the procedure to have the fetus removed but I never talked to my fiance about what would happen after. The hospital did not offer me any after care and I was not told of what to do afterwards. I was just sent home. Fast forward again to the present both me and my fiance end up in quite a bitter argument and he says that he blames me for us not being able to Bury our baby. Of course I felt so hurt by this. Not only by him saying this but also because I too blame myself. I did not know that I was able to do such a thing at the time. I knew nothing. I was scared and so upset and nothing was explained to me, or to us. I did not even know that my fiance knew we could do this because I shut off and didn't talk to him. I became so deeply sad and depressed. I became selfish and I didn't talk to him. I didn't make proper arrangements and now I feel worse because he blames me entirely. He says that he hates me for it. I feel ashamed. What kind of a mother was I to not even give my baby a decent resting place? I am just wondering if I am the only woman who has had this experience with miscarriage? Are we the only couple to feel this way? Is my fiance the only man to feel like this? I'm sorry if this seems stupid and doesn't make much sense, if it upsets anyone, is in the wrong topic, and if it isn't allowed then please remove. I just don't know how to feel other than distraught and disgusted.