Boudoir photo shoot?? yay or nah??

Alivia • I’m 23 and married to my love, I have a 3 yr old girl and a angel baby boy was born December 3rd @ 37 weeks n was stillborn.. our rainbow 🌈 baby Boy #3 Tobias is finally here

So me and my husbands first marriage anniversary is coming up in June n I was considering doing a shoot like this to try n show a sexy side of myself! We recently lost our son at 37 weeks back in December n we’ve just been threw a lot in the past year on top of that n I wanted to give a gift that was sexy bc I hate being sexy I feel goofy but he doesn’t really act like he would like that so I need advice should I or no??? and for the record I hate my body always struggled with body image issues n having kids makes it harder bc I’m not as skinny as I use to be so I need help