Still in love with him...

I’ve been in love with him for 2.5 years. Never wavered, always felt butterflies in my tummy. Always felt at home. But he messaged craigslist hoes and sent dick pics. Got no response but I consider this cheating regardless

Next, it was like he never wanted to be around me.

And then he got drunk and slapped my shoulder. That was the straw that broke the camels back. Although it wasn’t a bruising slap, or even a painful one (1/10 pain scale), it broke me. He wanted to hit me, drunk or not. I don’t care, you can’t just keep hurting me and getting away with it. But I love him so much, it hurts. He moved out, and we went 2 weeks without speaking but now here he is.. texting me almost every day. I encouraged it because I miss my best friend in him. But now I’m starting to want to have sex with him... and reunite. But I know I won’t get back together with him. I just can’t, after all he’s done. The only way I would ever get back with him is if a significant amount of time has passed, and i see his life has gotten together and he actually shows his love. He texted me last night and told me he was still in love with me. I don’t believe it.