Going to the gynecologist

Have you ever been afraid or nervous to go to the gynecologist? I'm 17 almost 18 and I still haven't gone and it's not because I just don't want to. I was molested when I was younger and it brings back the bad things that happened and the only person that I have ever felt comfortable enough to look at it or touch it is my fiance. He understands it but he says I should get over it because I need to be sure everything is good down there so that one day we can have a family.(we are getting married this year!😊) I thought I would be okay but then I think of someone else touching it or looking at it and I freak out and just push the idea aside. Please don't be hurtful.