Any natural bfp’s 12+ Months Post VR?

We’ve officially reached our 1 year anniversary of VR. Officially reached 13 agonizing cycles of actively hoping and praying for miracles. We were supposed to do another semen analysis after taking vitamins & supplements last week & I cancelled it because I’m in such a funk I feel like, what good is knowing at this point? Just got my f’ing period today, too, which is still, even knowing our odds, so devastating. I’m sick of living my life in these 2 week intervals...I’m having a hard time letting go of the tracking. My husband wants to do a final analysis. Is it worth it? I’ve been seeing some new names on this group & wondering if maybe there’s anyone out there who got their bfp a year or more after the reversal? Without going through ivf? How long is an appropriate time to try? I turn 36 tomorrow....just an additional reminder for us that there will need to be an end to this madness. Maybe I need a therapist. I feel ridiculously emotional. Is this normal ladies?!😥