Heartbroken

This is what wanting a baby so bad you can’t stand it. You’ve been trying so hard and so long that all that consumes your mind is wanting a baby, and all the possibilities. You feel like every month is your month just to figure it out it’s sadly not. I’m so angry at everyone who can get pregnant with the drop of a hat. I’m so pissed off at everyone who says your time will come because right now I feel something is terrible wrong with my body.. I hate myself every time I look at it because the one thing it’s designed to do is carry and deliver a child.. I hate everyone who says it will happen when you least expect it to happen.. i hate that no one truly gets my pain or even care.. I hate how all my friends are pregnant and I can’t even do it.. I hate how every single test is fucking negative. I hate it all... I hate the people who don’t want a child right then gets pregnant without even trying.. I absolutely don’t get this.. I can’t help but cry.. sorry for the rant...