Toxic relationships (very long)

(Brandon is not his real name)

Over 2 years ago I was dating Brandon

who I thought loved me with all his heart. He was my first serious relationship, I was head over heels for him, I was so in love with every single thing about him. Things soon started changing as I started finding things on his phone and started hearing rumors about him and since they were rumors I didn’t really pay attention but his text messages were still on my mind.

He would text girls from our school telling them he wanted to have sex before our senior year ended since he wouldn’t be able to see them again. I was heartbroken but he convinced me to stay. I later found out he would make out with other girls around school whenever I wasn’t at school. Once again he convince me to stay. He would fill my head with ideas of us growing up together and starting a family, he told me he loved me and he would die without me. BAD BAD BAD. We kept dating but I kept finding stuff on his phone like texts, calls, nudes of other girls and such. I was getting tired of it, I felt worthless. I started changing, I started talking to other guys and doing the same thing he did to me and at first it felt good but now that I look back I wish I had stayed the same girl because she was a real trophy tbh 🤦🏻‍♀️ he found out and would call me a hoe, he assumed I was having sex with guys (since we hadn’t had sex because I wasn’t ready) he would get mad if I was around my family, he would threatened to kill himself if I left him, he was a control freak and wanted to dictate everything I did. I was really over it. I met a new guy (let’s call him HONEY BUNCH) so honey bunch was really shy and quiet, it actually took me a while to get him to speak but once he got comfortable he became my best friend, i would vent to him and he would always be there for me I slowing started to fall in love with him so I decided to break up with brandon... not because of honey bunch but because I couldn’t be with him while growing feelings for someone else. The day I broke up with him I told him I wanted to be single, he proceeded to come to my house and cry and beg me to stay with him. This time he didn’t convince me and he knew it the moment I looked at him cry and walked my ass inside without a single word.

Later that day he sent me pictures of him cutting himself and pictures of his gun. I got scared but I wasn’t gonna let him brainwash me again. This time I was serious.

Honey bunch an i became really close and he was everything I ever wanted but I needed to heal before trying anything with him. Since we were best friends I would sometimes post him whenever he came over on my Snapchat or Instagram and one day Brandon saw and came to my house with a gun looking for him. That was it. I didn’t want anything to do with him, after we broke up I would still check on him to make sure he was okay. But the gun really just pushed me all the way back.

A year later I started dating honey bunch and he’s literally perfect in every single way, we laugh, we argue, we get sad but nothing has ever pushed us away from each other, he’s so respectful, he’s caring, sweet, nice, smart, hardworking, responsible and everything you could want in a man. I’m literally the happiest girl alive and I’ve never been more hopeful of my future. I truly think I want to spend years and years with him and if we ever break up I’ll be satisfied with the happiest chapter of my life.

You’re lovable, you’re worthy, you deserve the best, you deserve happiness, you need love

Just because a guy is too blind to see your value doesn’t mean u can’t be happy. Move on. Worry about your self, don’t rush into anything, and most important put your happiness first.

Besos