Hopeless ftm 😞

For the last few days i’ve been peeing blood (no burning when i pee & uti cultures came back negative), diarrhea like cramps in my lower stomach, and cannot poop for the life of me however i can feel baby still moving in there. I’m 34 weeks n i’ve been in the hospital a few times these past couple weeks for spotting immense pressure to where i couldn’t stand sit or lay down, it was so miserable. and i just feel like i’m being pushed to the side because i’m a ftm. is pregnancy really this hellish or could there be something wrong ? i am so hopeless and i just hope my baby’s okay all i can do is cry and stress out. please give me feedback. i’ve posted a few times and no ones comments anything and i’m just so lost. TIA