Hard to celebrate but I want to!!!

I need celebration of this baby! I called my Dr about the Harmony test and the nurse said the results were already in and all she could tell me over the phone is that if the doctor hadn't called me about test results than that probably meant it was all negative, but was able to tell me the gender. I'm in glee when she said IT'S A GIRL! 💝💝💝 The hard part is since we aren't telling anybody until I am 24 weeks and it's so hard to feel celebration when we're so scared that something could go wrong and we could lose this one after we lost another one in my 5th month 2 years ago. I'm eager to start feeling her move more consistently, right now I've only felt movement every other day or so and it's just minimal. I am so eager to feel the movement so that I know everything is real and okay! 16 +3 today!