Mom + the bf who ruined our lives!💔

I want to know if I'm ok or not for feeling this way. My mom keeps telling me it's just me and that I'm not right.

Sorry it's long...

The story...

We had a (family friend) a guy who's 28 2 years older then me. My mother is 43. My father is just 4 years older. She had me very young with my father. My father was my mother's first love and everything. When my mom was 19 they got married and were very happy together and in love. The this guy came a long and started to come to our house around 4 years ago. First he liked ME. We all knew this and ever since my dad didn't have him on his good side, especially because he knew I didn't like him because I had a bf then. The crazy thing is my mom knew this he would tell her things about me. This piece of shit also wanted to marry me so he can get papers. I said ABSOLUTELY NOT, never. That's ilegal. Moving forward. I got pregnant year 2016 and suddenly this guy lost interest in me. But me and my father noticed my mom being so different and being distant from us, including me. She wasn't supportive during my pregnancy only my dad which never in my life I expected because back then we didn't have good relationship. Yes my mother was the cause to brainwashing my head with lies. After my son was born on February 2017 my dad caught my mother cheating on him. The WORST way. They were in the same table in a family dinner and they were texting each other while in the same table. Awful I know right? My dad immediately called me crying. My dad is one tough cookie. He never had cried this way so I knew something was up. For a second thought someone was dead but his heart was the one dead I understood after seeing him. 💔

My mom had lied to all of us. Me and my sisters. All these years she had made it seem and tell everyone that my father was the bad guy in the relationship. When it was ALL HER! A week later my dad couldn't take it. And he left the country to be with his parents. He stayed in touch with us and we went to visit him all last year of 2017 while out there. Its been officially a year my dad has been out of America and he plans to come back and start a new life and focus on him. Here comes the big problem...

Last year in 2017...

They found ilegal stuff in the house which never in my house with my dad we had. No problems of any sort. Well apparently this "guy/bf" had left stuff here in a room hidden. Somehow someone besides me and my sisters knew about it like my mother and who knows who. And they came to search my home. I myself was confused and as I didn't know anything I told them I had no problem. Well when they told me about "the stuff" I was extremely beyond confused I had no idea. I called my mom and that's when I knew... she had been doing really bad things thanks to this guy. Next thing you know they take her to jail because of HIM. And a week of being in jail after me bailing her out. It was a 80,000$ to bail her out. You could only imagine the hard week I had and how bad the problem was. Moving forward the first day she had the chance to spend it with us after being free. I caught her with him. It was the most painful thing to see. She choose him instead of her daughters. My blood pressure tends to get very low when I'm very upset etc. So that day I ended on the ER I needed oxygen and intravenous fluids. After being back home things changed a bit. But then after months I caught her texting him etc. We're now in 2018 and my 14 month old son brought me her phone and she receives a message. Even though she tends to change up his names by the way he wrote the message I knew. I was shaking in that instant I felt I couldn't breath. I immediately reply to this idiot and i tell him to leave my mother alone because we her daughters hate him. And my mom comes in my room and she's like omg what are you doing and she takes her phone away from my hands and you could only imagine how that went... I got really bad health wise. After some hours of being able to move and walk etc I left the house for a whole day without talking to her. She disgusts me so much. She cares more about this guy then my feelings and my sisters. She keeps choosing this guy over us. She thinks I'm wrong to hate him, I tell her we don't hate her relationship but him the guy who reminds us of the person who caused the horrible things in our family. My dad to leave to another country. And the rest of the bad things that I didn't mention. She doesn't give two shits about us excuse my language. She thinks that money is love and because we have food and we can buy everything we need that she is a good mother. I have my job and my partner but I stay in my house since last year because I get worried about my sisters and I rather be close to be there for them. I agree it's my moms fault for letting this guy be in her life that way. But it's also all his fault my sisters and dad have been depressed for a whole year and have had to go through the most horrible things because of him being in my moms life. He makes her do bad decisions. I hate how my mom acts like some teenager. I've told her all this and we've spoken to her and she doesn't care. The worst is she tells me that she doesn't care about me at all and that why should I care about her or be affected. She thinks I am some robot and that this shouldn't affect me. But it does. Extremely. I cry from time to time and probably all 2017 because of her poor decimos because of this guy. And she ALWAYS has the nerve to call me crazy. And say I'm not normal because of my health. She puts me down a lot of times. And try's to even put my toddler on her side. When I don't allow him to have any sugar she will give him some. And I tell her and she tells me "you're crazy you're wrong you have problems in your head you're sick." Do you guys think she's right? Am I really all this?