Amazement

So I just got out of my relationship of almost 2 years. It wasn't a great relationship. neither of us were happy at all and even after trying and trying he just acted like I annoyed him he hated my dogs always threatened to get rid of them or kill them, he didn't care about anything I would talk to him about like how my day at work went or if something happened that upset me, I would try joking with him and he would look at me like I'm stupid, he would force me to have sex when I didn't want to, he hated all of my friends and family and hated me spending time with them especially if he wasn't there, and he would say or do something rude I would tell him I don't like it and he would lie to me saying he doesn't know what I'm talking about and just over reacting... Finally I left. now he is acting like I'm his world saying how much he misses me and the pups he even drove to where I'm at to try getting me  back he has claimed he wants to hurt himself. he has done all of this before and I went back and nothing has changed. So I do believe I made the right choice.

Just only thing I feel bad about is that my best friend has helped me so much he and I have been best friends for almost 10 years. and I've started to really care deeply for him. It just amazes me how different they are and how he talks to me and makes an effort to show he cares about me and just makes me feel safe and warm. im hoping to move closer to him so we can see how things go 💙