Well my “friend” sent me screenshots of him talking shit on Facebook because we both don’t like him. And have dated him. Awhile ago when we dated I barely eat at home in the summer I always ride bike, and his mom said I can eat there when ever I needed well I rode with him around town, and just the week before he wanted to have sex with this girl and said oh I won’t do it again next week later I walked him to his cousins and went to his house to get my stuff he had his phone there and I never usually check it cause he always takes his phone with or never around me, so I knew the password 51416, and I seen messages from these girls wishing he could cuddle her cause she’s was upset, he never called me beautiful, never did anything special for our months throughout, I did it. Said musically was stupid. So I made two sandwiches and left, and I went to his cousins and his uncle was out front and he said I don’t look to happy I shook my head and said no, trying to contain my anger he came out, I said here if you needed this he said no, and I said I seen the messages between you and that girl wishing you could hold her, I said I’m done I’m breaking up with you turned around and rode home. He later messages me when I get halfway home, cursing at me, I said then maybe you shouldn’t have cheated. He blocked me and put a knife through my heart I got home and my dad knew something was wrong I held it back so much till I got to my moms. And he just used me for sex to text these other girls. We were friends a few months after I had feelings.. but he was playing me and just using me for sex once again.. 😞 when I hung out with this girl (she a hoe) we all hung out and when we got back to his house he was mad and called me a dumb stupid bitch, his mom said don’t talk to her like that. And as being 12 I wasn’t dumb.. but now seeing I was stupid for giving my virginity up to him.. the moment wasn’t even special he just forced me after I said it hurt to stop. And I was assaulted when I was 11.. By a 16 year old.. I told him I wasn’t ready and I let my dad have him sleepover and he tried doing it my sleep.. being 14 now I’ve tried suicide.. I’ve tried getting help. I have ptsd anxiety depression, and feeling like I’m not good enough in school for anyone, I try to be happy but just him saying that about me I have low enough esteem, I have a boyfriend now we made a year and almost a month, he respects me, calls me beautiful, helps me when I’m upset, buys me food, rubs my back hair, we can take a nap without him doing anything, he would help me then himself. My dad knows I just don’t know at this point I’ve dealt with anti crisis my mom doesn’t seem to understand I’m getting worse