Hi! I just wanted to get this off my chest because although I don't feel guilt, I feel the consequence.

Yep, I know I'm a shitty person for putting my love through something like this.

A little bit of background:

So my boyfriend and I have been dating for a year now, and about a month or two ago, we started having these really bad rough patches due to fighting, so I turned to someone I trusted the most, my closest male friend, so I could get some insight into the male mind. (How fuckin stupid of me, lol). Well...over time I started to catch feelings for the male friend (he started to catch them for me too) because I see the male friend every day because we'd either hang out or be in study hall together. We were also having similar relationship issues at the time, so naturally I was clicking better with the male friend while my boyfriend and I were in the relationship-crushing rough patch, weren't having any sex and I only saw my boy like...once every two weeks? Maybe once a week if I was lucky. It was hard for a while between us.

I ended up cheating on my boyfriend with the male friend. I'm not proud of it, I don't know if it'll happen again though because I also love the male friend. (Stupid situation, another stupid fucking story for another time.)

I've explained most of the situation to my boyfriend, I made sure he knew that it wasn't his fault for my choice and I definitely wouldn't blame him for wanting out or holding resentment against me because of this confession, which I told him in person so it didn't seem like I was guilt tripping him. We had a very long discussion after that and he forgave me. My boyfriend explained to me why he forgives me and understands why I made my choice.

Now trust me when I say I'm still very much in love with my boyfriend, it's just very complicated right now. Please don't insult my boyfriend for making the choice to stay with me.

I'm very scattered because my mind still isn't in one place after my recent concussion, apologies if some parts of the story don't make sense.