Aside from just ‘planning’ on going natural to start with, his delivery ended up being an emergency section due to his heartrate plummeting. I was completely out for the section so my son was 2.5 hours old by the time I was awake enough to hold him. In the meantime daddy got to hold him, grandparents and my best friend who were all there for the delivery got to hold him. They all got pictures of them holding him for the first time - but parents/friend were gone when I got to finally see him so there are no pics of me meeting him the first time.

And it is kind of a blur now, just waking up, so feels like I don’t really remember that moment when I got him anymore. I feel kind of jealous and robbed of my special moment. I understand why my parents and friend left by that time and I don’t fault them for that. I totally get why my husband didn’t think of getting a picture for me so I don’t fault him either. Just a combination of not being literally conscious for his birth and no picture to capture that moment when i first got to see him just makes me rather sad.

Anyone experience or relate?