So I kicked my son to be ex husband out for abuse bad temper and later after begging me to come back he’s on dating websites and talking to girls

I decided to keep him from my pregnancy and the birth does that sound harsh. I even called police cause he though a guy was here so he threatened to come over with some friends and beat who ever was here. Which I have nobody. Now ima lame ass biatch what do I do this hurts so bad he’s blocked from all calls texts to me. I’m so scared doing this pregnancy alone please help no bad comments