i have been abstinent for several years, but feeling ready to be back in it. A very violent sexual assault messed up my mind. I've spent a lot of money and effort working with different people and feel ready to get back in the game. Should I just take a trip and pick some rando, ask a friend (which seems messed up) or most scary of all let myself get involved with a man who has been pursuing me for a long time? I like the idea of finding one person to be with for the rest of my life. But I know that is naive. I feel like this guy could be that?