As I lay here with a broken heart I can’t bring myself to understand how you can keep doing this to me? How you can keep lying to me, how you can keep hiding things from me. How do you look me in the face and tell me you love me knowing that you lie to me? I’m carrying our daughter. Doesn’t she matter? Don’t we matter? Each time I tell myself I have a plan, a plan how I can take care of myself without you. I tell myself I don’t need/want anything from you, only for you to take of your daughter. It’s been almost nine years together. I gave you everything. I stuck by you thru everything. Thru all the lies, the porn, the hiding stuff, the cheating.. you promised to change. Nine years later and I’m here with a broken heart. I know deep down inside you don’t love me anymore. It’s written all over your face, your actions make it so clear. I blame myself. I should of left so long ago. I don’t know how to let go. I love you. You’re my soul mate.. but you threw it away, again. I wish you knew how much you’re hurting me. Each day I’m with you I’m slowly dying. You chip away at my heart every single day. Soon, there won’t be anything left of me...