Finally pregnant with our rainbow baby

This is a long post...

So after losing a baby October 4, 2017 I was devastated. Especially because I went through 2 emotional years of TTC. Finally going through assisted fertility to finally get pregnant. Several rounds of clomid (all unsuccessful) and one round of Femara (successful)

We were ecstatic and I told everyone we had a second baby on the way. I just couldn’t even contain my excitement. At my 11.5 week scan I was told my baby didn’t have a heartbeat and it was one of the hardest days of my life. I couldn’t even believe that it could happen to me.

Over the last few months I’ve found ways to cope with the loss and last month I finally went back to the fertility specialist to start on the fertility medicine again. Well during that appointment they found a cyst on my ovary and told me I couldn’t take the medicine this cycle. So I went home frustrated and figured I would just try not to think about the whole TTC process this cycle.

So today marks day 35 of my cycle and I had taken pregnancy tests earlier this week that were negative so I figured “ok AF hurry up and show your ugly face.” Tonight I figured “oh what the hell I’ll take a pregnancy test just because.” AND WHAT DO YOU KNOW? POSITIVE. Yes I’m excited and extremely terrified at the same time but it just goes to show that my body was able to do it without fertility medicine. Here’s to hoping it’s a happy and healthy 9 months this time around. 🤞🏼🌈