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is this normal relationship things?? he has completely tricked me to believe that he hated this women and this women Is such a bad person the mother of his other children and we finally all hung out and he had nothing but good things to say about her to her face. she even commented he was acting different than he usually does because he was acting a bit stand offish(1) I don't feel in my heart that he is the person I am meant to be with and I feel as if though he is always up to no good (2) he always talks down to me and basically switches everything as if I'm such a horrible women to him ex all I do is bitch and nag at him or he has to be perfect for me and nothing is good enough (3) he has manipulative tendencies when we began dating he made it as if though he was this sweet caring guy who would always be there for me and then once I actually fell for him that's when he began to talk down on me continuously he brang the little confidence I built down to a zero yet he would always switch up on me and me being in love and dazed in a way I just went with it while he was doing this I began to hate myself became timid stopped caring about myself because I felt I was never good enough (4) I constantly question if I should allow him to be happy and be with someone else since he claims I'm such a horrible girlfriend for wanting the things I feel I deserve in a relationship (5) he encourages our daughter to not have a bond with me and even disrespect me (6) he always says he doesn't care if we break up or not basically he'll be ok regardless(7) even after I got out of the hospital from delivering our daughter as my stomach was going down he would make comments about how big I was (8)through the last 4 months of my pregnancy he went out continuously while I worked two jobs and would only sex with me while watching porno of smaller girls and during this time I caught him talking to other girls like legit told a girl once that he would help her find a job to help her take care of her and her daughter (9) he would make remarks about how he "could be" fucking girls in the apartment I paid for while I'm working (10) his other baby mother said he was manipulative and controlling towards her and even abusive (11) I stopped working after I started bleeding really bad with my pregnancy and finally he got a part time job and he switched everything on me after months of me catering to him while he had nothing going not even trying and being forgiven and caring towards him I noticed him constantly saying this is all mine I pay for this now and this apartment as if him paying the bills gave him the right to basically treat me like shit and to belittle me (12) he never leads as a men should or does he just wants me to lead always and take care of everything while he reaps my benefits(13) he tells me I'm wrong for questioning what he does and who certain women her after he has cheated on me with girls he works with just met and even tried to flirt with my friends while I was pregnant and that this was all the past and though I am working on forgiving him for the sake of my family he always says everything is considered the past even something that happened a week ago (14) he gets uneasy and annoyed now that I've been building myself back up and even told me that he knocks me down so much because he feels like I'll find out I'm to good for him and no longer be with him (15) he considers my dreams dumb and that the only reason I want to start a business and create wealth is because I'm young and dumb basically (16) he at the age of almost 30 wants to live a life of going out partying getting fucked up and always being intoxicated basically and calls me stuck up for wanting more organization and not wanting to drink and smoke with him all the time and pushing him to be better and achieve more not going out to do those things not that it's horrible every once in the while but literally he has no goals at all and I do yet he makes me feel bad for me wanting my 30 year old bd to gave something going for himself and calls me a nag and a bitch for these things yet he told me in the beginning these are the goals he had set for himself and now I see it was all fake and he was just talking a good talk and I was basically dumb and naive being 19 not knowing my own worth and being in love on top of it all(17) he has been trying to tell people I'm not a good person based on what I do but he always switches what happened so he seems innocent or even a victim with everything (18) he gives girls attention love and respect that are not with him but barely gives me attention and as I said talks down to me and tells me I'm not a good partner and want to much(19) he excuses his cheating and flrting with men are meant to have many women not just one and a quote from the Bible and many other things but is this normal at all or am I still being naive I'm so confused on if I'm really just a horrible girlfriend or if maybe we just aren't meant to be??? or maybe it's just him?