Am I gay?

Sevanah

I'm 14, I have had 2 boyfriends and I loved one and the other one was just kind of a jelousy thing. I still love my first boyfriend, but I don't know. I am asking if I am gay because I will be shopping online for underwear and bras and bralletes and I will get turned on by it. When I occasionally watch porn I get more turned on by girl on girl not guy girl. I don't have a crush on any girls in perticular, but I don't know if I'm bi, lesbian, or straight or what. Please help!!

*Side note* I grew up and am still growing up with a very Republican family, so being gay is frowned upon. I think it is fine but my parents, grandparents, siblings, and friends all disapprove.