I'm so fucking tired of breastfeeding. It's been 7 months now. I switched to the pump cuz I could no longer stand the disgusting feeling it gave me to constantly pull out my tits for a little shit that plays fuck all half the time he eats. Now it's just over all the sensation of constantly fucking with my nipples. I haven't had such dark feelings and thoughts for a long time. And what does my wonderful SO do to help...tells me he doesn't care, to toughen up and deal with those petty emotions. says formula is poison and I should go live with my evil mother if I want to "pull that shit." yeah I'm weak minded, I fucking hate bf for selfish reasons bit I am DONE! he says he would do it if he could, but he can't so I have to. EXACTLY YOU CANT! SO HOW CAN YOU TELL ME IT'S NOT A BIG DEAL AND TO TOUGH IT OUT?! I miss wearing more than a tank top and dirty old sweater since it's all I can wear. miss showering everyday, miss the desire to make myself pretty. Most of all, fucking miss choosing what's best for my mind and body. But what do I know, I'm just being a selfish mellenial cunt that doesn't want to give my son the absolute best.