I think I have baby blues :’(

Hi I’m pregnant with no3 and had the blues badly with both of them I have a bad history of depression I’ve battled most my life. I’ve been very suicidal two years ago now I’m in a great place planned baby everything’s great...... BUT I find myself crying 24/7 I feel lonely I don’t feel like I have many friends I’ve only been here a year and it’s a new place I just donthave confidence to go and meet others. How can I snap back to my positive state that I got to? I don’t want pills my doctors useless I nearly killed myself two years ago and that was because of the tablets made me worse. My husband always said tell me if ur low agin so I did and he said right we have to deal with this now otherwise ur go to others for advice and u won’t talk to me so he didn’t really listen to me I don’t think he has any idea how low I’ve he doesnt help he doesn’t pay me much attention this baby so wanted werehaving a girl witch is r dream we have two boys but he’s so more interested in beer and pub’ Sny advice wud b great