Letter to myself

Her smile, her laugh, the way her eyes light up. Her touch, her kiss, her embrace. The birds in your chest, the lightning in your veins, the pounding in your heart. Her amazing imperfections. Her wonderful flaws. Her beautiful scars. Her jokes, her games. Her personality. Her subtle breathing, her soft moans, her horrible morning breath. The cute wrinkle she gets when she’s so happy that nothing else matters. The way she thinks. The lengths she will go for you. The way she holds you when you need it, the way she kisses you when you cry. The way she cares. The way she loves. The love she makes you feel. She hurt you. But that’s not what you’ll miss. It’s not worth it. And she’s worth it all. Losing her is losing more then sex. Losing her is losing your best friend. Losing her is losing your best shot at love. Losing her is losing meaning. Losing her is losing life. Memories will haunt you worse then a simple mistake. Don’t let her go. We both know you’ll regret it. It’s dark outside.. stay inside. Stay with her. She is your light. She is your shelter. She is your reason. She loves you. And you know damn well you love her too. Don’t put yourself into a spot you know your not strong enough to make it out of. She is your strength. She is the soon to be mother of your child. She is your queen, she is your angel. She saved you. Forgive her. And show her nothing but the love you can’t live without.