i havent worn makeup because of my ex.

i just broke up with my ex who was controlling and emotionally and mentally abusive. we had a son together and he wouldnt let me break up with him, he constantly told me he would change. he never helped me with the baby, he would only play with my son, other than that id be the mom and dad. he would never get up in the mornings to watch him because he would want to sleep while i went to work so i always have to have a babysitter. even if that night before he said he would watch him but changed his mind in the morning. he quit his job because he wanted to help me take care of my son when he was born but all he did was play video games, drink, smoke all night. never once would help me. id have to take like 10 minute showers because he could never watch him and if i had him asleep (the baby) he would wake him up being loud. and he would just let him cry till i got out to take care of him. i never got to hang out with friends, i never got to have any alone time for myself, he was always with me no matter what. it was his way or, his way. he would get mad at me for little things and belittle me, he cheated on me, and i stayed. he never hit me but he would try to grab me and make me talk when i didnt want to. he would tell me he held back from punching a wall whenever i made him mad. he made me believe that i was worthless and a bad mom because "i never took care of my son". well, i broke up with him for good and filled for full custody! he is beyond mad at me. i blocked him. im moving on, im starting to realize how much of a liar and manipluative person he really is. i cant believe i spent a year and a half with him when i knew things werent right. it was hard leaving because he refused to let me. he is telling everyone on facebook of how bad of a mom i am and how my son is gonna hate me when he grows up because hes dad wont be in his life 247 everyone is believeing him and dont know the real truth. i cant stick up for myself because that would look bad in court so i just have to let it happen and try to not let it bother me because i know the real him! . but now im single, i can do what i want, i can wear makeup again! i can wear what i want! i dont have to ask permission from him to see friends or even just to go to the store. im going to get full custody of my son (the dad will have vistation rights) im moving on and im actually happy and can smile!!! it was hard to leave because i believed he loved me. but he only loved that he could make me do whatever he wanted. im worth more than that and every girl is worth more than that. im sorry to anyone who has been or is still in that situation. get out while you can. you wont regret it trust me! youll get through it!❤❤