SOMEONE PLEASE READ & HELP ME IM BEGGING :

i’ve been talking to my ex again as of this week & he’s super toxic & mentally abusive & he wants to get back together but i’ve been hesitant, we still say i love you to eachother & guys i am soooo in love with him & he’s my person but he treats me like absolute shit like i’m garbage & have no worth. he always tells me how he’s the only person that will love me & he gets mad at me & yells at me when i party & yells at me when i wear certain clothes & sometimes says really mean hurtful things like i’m a dumbass or whore & when we ended things i had sex w 2 people & he told me he lost all respect for me because of that because i’m “his girlfriend all the time even when we aren’t together & i shouldn’t be aloud to do that” but when we first started talking his body count was like 20 & now it’s 60+ ( he wouldn’t tell me the exact number ) & sometimes when he’s mad at me he will send me pictures of him & girls or him having sex w other people & just being with other people & yesterday he almost killed me literally because i hung out w a guy & smoked ( even tho he tried getting w me but i curved him ) & jagger got so mad at me but he asked me this morning if he could have a 3sum w 2 girls & i was like “yes because even if i say no you’ll still do it” & then he was like “no because i respect you” which is bullshit. i’m stuck in such a shitty situation guys please help me. i have tried so many times to break up with him but he’s the master manipulator. i had him blocked on everything for 3 months but then i felt lonely & unblocked him & that’s why we have been talking. anyways someone please help me. i think it’s a lot easier said than done blocking him & breaking it off but i love him so much & i know he doesn’t love me back i just don’t knkw what to do