Repulsive

Since I started showing at 3 months (I’m 8 almost 9 months) my child’s father has refused to have any sexual contact with me because it’s disgusting and I turn him off. I’ve caught him texting other girls for pictures so he can get off. And I’m pretty sure he’s cheating on me. It makes me really depressed to think that the only person I love thinks of me this way I want to leave but don’t want to be to blame for my child not having her father in her life