So idk if anyone’s gonna end up reading this, but i graduated High School last year 2017 & me & my high school sweetheart after 2 years of liking each other & being just together finally started dating novemeber 23, 2016. Since i was a freshman in High School i always said i’d take a year off after i graduated High School to travel, but when senior year finally rolled around i decided i should go to college, i got swept away by the idea of college, everyone was talking about it my senior year from teachers & coaches to family & friends & friends parents opinions that there’s “Only one time in your life to go away & experience your college years” & “You should go away to college” But the thing is i’m not like a regular “typical” college girl, i don’t like to go out & party all the time, i don’t care for it, an amazing night for me is literally going bowling with my boyfriend, or going to see a movie with my friends, & the first half of my freshman year of college i decided to stay home, but the second half of my freshman year i decided to go away to college 4 hours from home. I’m a good student with a 3.3 GPA, & i feel like i went away to college just because i cared ab what everyone else said, & i feel so stupid of it now, but i hate this constant change of schools & a best friend i had at the time was like “You’re just staying home for college cause of your boyfriend” that was not the only reason tho because being the “typical” college girl is just not who i am, of course was it a plus to stay home & have my boyfriend, yess, but i feel like now that i’m away at college i’m just going through the motions, i dead ass go to classes, walk to starbucks, & than go to my dorm & go to sleep & i feel like if i we’re home i could have a job, my best friends, my family & yess or course my boyfriend, everyone puts this stigma against high school sweethearts too & even when i was making my decision about whether to stay home for college or go away my senior year, one of my friends parents had said “Do you really want him to be the only guy you sleep with” which i was so taken back from. i know i’m young, but there’s no limitation to knowing what true love is. You can be mature enough to know this at any age. Just because you’ve lived longer doesn’t mean that i am not capable or wise enough to understand what love is, & how it feels cause i sure as hell do. & i have seen 15 years old’s more wise than 30 year olds. Anyways, idk if for my sophomore year if i should just go home or try & give the away college more of a chance than i have being here one semester, lmk what y’all think.

Xoxo (Thank you so much if you did read this)