One of my major insecurities is my weight! I have struggled with my weight since I was a child, I can not even tell you the last time I can remember being small or skinny....I believe I started to gain weight when I was about 8 due to depression. I went though a depressed situation that had stayed with me my whole life and to this day it still bothers me when it comes up but I'm learning to think positive. I am 100% negative about almost everything, I'm a negative person I have been most of my life and I'm mean anf I have a temper not going to lie but I really want to change I want to be less sad and snappy and more happy and healthy. So my goal is to try and go to the gym everyday 3 hours a day if I can do it. I also want to start drinking protein shakes since I never eat and do a liquid diet. I want to get healthy I'm sick of weighing my self and it saying 357 or something like that, I'm just sick of being fat. I'm sick of not being able to find clothing that don't fit I'm sick of thinking people are talking about me behind my back or staring at me while I eat I am just sick of it. I'm sick of thinking of 500 ways I could die or wishing I would die and hoping one day it would just end I'm sick of feeling this way so I'm ready to make a change and make my life positive I'm ready to take action and control of my life and change...I can't do it alone I know I can't but I'm willing to try and atleast make a effort in doing it