I had my first child on 1-6-18, I was doing so great with my son, always happy to have him in my life. After a month I feel like I'm not a good mother or wife to my husband. I lost the feeling to do anything and be around people. Nights are the worst since I don't sleep, the thoughts are horrible. I feel like something is going to happen to my son if I'm asleep, in another room, someone is watching him, or when I take a shower. I don't want to take medication for PPD or whatever is going on with me since I don't want to ne judged. Please I need advice ladies..