A whirlwind of contradiction

Jack

I can’t figure out who I like. I have more experience with men than women but I am more attracted to women than men. However I am too nervous to have sex or any intimacy with anyone! I grew up thinking i was wrong for liking girls and am still dreading the day when my church community finds out im not straight. But I don’t feel like i fit anywhere. I am attracted to people and think about having sex with them but don’t actually feel the need to. Does that make sense?? I’m worried im never going to find someone.