hi guys.....ive beem diagnosed with PTSD after being in a 4 year abusive relationship from i was 14! i broke up with my.partner as.soon as i found out i was pregnant..as he badly bate me.in my.last pregnant when i was 6 weeks.which led to.a.misscarriage... ( yous are.gonna ask.why did i.go back?) but.unless.you have been what ive been threw your opinion dosnt matter! ive done the right things this time by leaving him and careing for.my baby which i am now 18weeks!!! but im.just so down in the dumps.. i.dont feel excited.amymore.. im.constantly.worrying about havin to.do this on my own because i always dreamed of having my.perfect family but its not gonna work that way! i have my gender scan tomarrow and still not excited! im just looking reasurance that everything will be okay and it will get= better!!