So Friday when I was 39+6 I had my last prenatal appointment. Everything was great, I was 3 cm dilated, and we scheduled an induction for next week Friday in case I didn’t go into labor before then. This was all in the afternoon between 2-3 pm. I was so excited. I was updating everyone who had wanted to know and we were all super excited together. Well at 12:15 am I had my first contraction. I almost didn’t realize it at first because I was distracted by my toddler refusing to sleep. 20 minutes later I have another one. I’m getting excited thinking finally something is happening!! So I downloaded a counter. You guys, I never even got to use it. In the space of 3 hours my contractions went from 20 minutes apart to 10 minutes to minutes. It was going really fast. The pain was really intense and it was hard for me to focus. I finally woke up my husband because I couldn’t handle the pain anymore. I wasn’t thinking straight and he kept asking if we should go to the hospital or not. I kept saying I don’t know and I don’t know what to do. I finally called and they said come in. This was almost 4 in the morning. We give our daughter to Grandma and I put some pants on and grab a sweater. No hospital bag, no plans for anything. I could not focus on anything beyond each contraction and the pain that came with it. We get to the hospital in less than 10 minutes and it’s now like 4:10 am. Normally the roads we had to take are crawling with cops and we saw none. Someone in the universe loved me!! Once at the hospital is where it gets really crazy. We get up to L&D; and immediately put in a room. There are a few nurses already in there but only one is demanding my attention so I focus on her. She gets my name and checks to see where I’m at. Ladies I was already at 9 cm with a bulging water bag!! I freaked out a little because I really really wanted an epidural. That was the only thing I truly wanted. So the awesome nurse says she will see what we can do. I’m in so much pain at this point I’m almost hyperventilating. This amazing woman helped me focus and start to breathe as much as I was able to. The anesthesiologist made it to my room and I get in position for the epidural. Once it’s put in I lay on my side and I was supposed to get onto my back. Well that didn’t happen. I had been feeling some pressure and after I lay on my side and tried to turn over, my water exploded!! It was not just breaking, it exploded everywhere!! The epidural hadn’t even started yet so I’m feeling everything. The second my water broke I completely lost control. My baby was right there and I started screaming I had to push. I could feel his head already trying to come out. Well this amazing nurse was still right by my side and even after I lost control she helped me find enough of it to get through enough pushes for my son to be born. 4 agonizing, excruciatingly painful pushes. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever done in my life. I’m also pretty sure the whole hospital knew I was having a baby. I had no idea I was capable of screaming like that or making such animal noises. There was definitely some F bombs dropped during the screaming. I’m honestly still trying to process it all!! One of my sons shoulders got a little stuck, but the delivering doctor got that taken care of like it was nothing. The feeling of relief once he was out was indescribable!! The best medicine for the worst possible pain. And of course like 2 minutes after my son was born the epidural started working. So not fair. But thankfully that made everything else go easier. The placenta was delivered a few minutes after my son and when they were checking to see if I had any tears (none thankfully) or pressing on my uterus, it was merely uncomfortable instead of painful. So at 4:59 am on his due date April 7th, my son Kai was born weighing 7 lbs 6 oz and 20 in long. It was hands down the craziest, most painful, and emotional, vulnerable moment in my life and I would do it again just for him. It’s crazy what we are willing to do for our children and the lines we cross that we never thought we would.

Scarlett holding her new brother as excited as could be.

Thank you to anyone reading this far. It was a crazy adventure and I figured I’d share 😊