I feel like I’m the only one who isn’t really freaked out about birth, but I’m terrified of anything the doctor has to do that involves sticking things up me. Idk if it’s because I’ve been sexually assaulted and am jumpy when it comes to people touching around there because of it or what. I’m terrified of having to have my water broken, membranes sweeped, cervix checked, etc. I can’t sit still even when they use one of those smaller speculums. I’m 34 weeks so I know I have to get over it soon... Does anyone else feel similar? Or does anyone have any ideas on how to calm myself down about it?