Debilitating Fear

Leslie • Lost three babies. Hoping for our 🌈 after the ⛈

My husband and I got pregnant after two months of trying in August. My baby ended up having a giant omphalocele and we had to terminate because it was dying in my womb. I had a D and C at 14 weeks after I thought we were all in the clear and happy in the second trimester. We found out through genetic testing that the baby had trisomy 2 and that it would not have survived to term. This would have been our first. We’ve been trying since to get pregnant with no luck which is horribly depressing but also I feel relief because I know that when I get pregnant again I’m going to be so afraid that I’ll experience this pain again. I haven’t taken the loss at all well. I’m not sure if I could handle this pain again. Has anyone else experienced this fear? Does anyone have any strategies or techniques they’ve used to conquer it? I’ve been going to therapy which helped, but I’m still not over it.