My life situation is so trash right now. 2 years ago my parents divorced. My dad lives “alone” and my 3 siblings and I live with my mom and her boyfriend. I’m 20, my brothers 14, 12 and my little sister just turned 10. When we lived with my dad there were the few times my dad struggled with bills but we’ve never had anything major he found a way. He worked two jobs and got by without the help of my mom bill wise. She’d buy groceries and our clothes and stuff and pay her own bills. But I swear in those times as well there’d be times where shedbe behind on her payments. She’s a rpn (registered practica nurse) and gets paid well so to me it’s weird looking back on why she’d be late when she didn’t contribute to any of the house bills. Anyways, when they divorced I was in my second year of college. My dad paid for my deposit and my first semester. The deal was for her to pay for the second semester and omg I was going to school waiting to get kicked out because it was almost the end of the semester and she still didn’t pay for my tuition. She kept telling me my dad had money aside for me and he should pay it. Eventually her friend gave her money to pay for my tuition. After that I decided to work, I was 18 when I got my first full time job. Once I started working my dad told her he wasn’t giving her child support money anymore because I’m working now. Cool. My mom didn’t want me working but honestly I couldn’t handle being broke because no parent was giving me money. Anyways every pay my mom was asking me for 400, 600. It even got to a point where she asked me to take out a credit card for $5,000!!!! When she asked me that I just went to my bed and cried that she would even ask me that, I would have not been able to pay that back and I knew for a fact she wouldn’t help me pay it back. Anyways after working a year and a half I had almost 8 grand in savings. I made plans to buy a car because I was starting school last September. I tried to make plans to work part time but it wouldn’t work at my job so I didn’t continue wanting to buy a car. Around some time before that my mom said she needed 1,500 bucks but at the time I had like 1,000 in savings and 20 to spend she said she’d get paid the next day and give it back to me the next day so I agreed and took out everything I had in savings and gave it to her. The next day comes, I ask her for the money back and she said she couldn’t give it back and thatd she give it back when she got her taxes. She got her taxes bought a 1700 iPhone bout my brothers Jordan’s herself and my sister huaraches asked me if I wanted a pair but I said no. I didn’t want to contribute to that spending but anyways I didn’t get the 1000 back and came to the realization that I wasn’t going to. A few months later pass and she tells me I’m her last resort and asks me for 3,000!!!! 3,0000 freaking dollars. Of course I give it to her, I make all these excuses as to why I should like the fact that shesmy mom and she needs it and it’s my own money so just in case she doesn’t Give it back at least I don’t owe it back to anyone. I tell her I’ll give it to her but she HAS to buy my books for school. She says ok. Once it gets closer to school I tell her about an argument with my dad and she tells me not to ask him for anything (I asked him if he was gonna give me bus money since I was paying for school, he said no because he gives my mom monthly cheques and she should be giving us our shares) anyways, I remind her she has to buy my books and she’s like why do I have to pay for them. And I was like uhmmmm... because I gave you $4,000 that’s why. Anyways school comes and I buy all my books (she gave me 40 for an online subscription and told me to put the rest) I used my last paycheque with my savings to pay my first semester and buy clothes/shoes so that when I wasn’t working I wouldn’t have to ask for clothes or anything. So now I have 3,000 in my savings. Next semester comes her boyfriend is asking me for $600 give it to him he pays me back then 200 Give it him him then he pays me back. I tell them I can’t give them money because I need to pay for second sem. Boom 2000 spent on the second semester and 1,000 left in savings. My boyfriends birthday rollls in and I decide to buy him a gshock (300 gone) Random trips to Walmart left me with 500 left. One day I realize I don’t have pads left, my mom uses these bigs ones that I don’t like so I asked her to buy me pads and she told me to either ask my dad or use toilet paper. That shattered me on some real shit, I decided to get a job because clearly I needed my own money to get my basic necesites. I ask my boyfriend to bring me to Walmart I bought 3 months supply. I then got a job at a&w; and fucking hated it so I never went back and shortly after I was blessed with a job that allows me to go to school and work on the weekends. I work on average 1 or 2 days every 2 weeks. Meaning I get only 100-150 pay every 2 weeks which is enough to grtme by for 2 weeks considering bus and food and phone bill. Recently my moms been asking me/telling me my boyfriend and I have to give her money to help her out especially because he’s here he should help out cause now she’s paying extra. Anyways she’s literally behind hundreds of dollars on every bill to the point where our electricity is on the verge of getting cut off. I’m so annoyed because it’s freaking Canada how is our shit getting cut off as if we’re in a third world country where it’s regular (where we stay in DR) also last year our water got cut for a few days. Also this year we went pretty much majority of the year with no internet. Anyways 2 weeks ago my mom buys me my sister and herself matching converse and her boyfriend bought himself and my brother timberland boots. Like why the fudge are we so behind on bills and you decide it’s an appropriate time to buy shoes???? Shoes we don’t even need like omg. When I found out we were so behind and she wanted money from my boyfriend and I I was so mad and told her the money that went towards the shoes should have went to freaking bills and she agreed. Like 😤. Anyways. I got my tax return of 1280. I was at Walmart grabbing a few things because they ate all the pickles I bought and my siblings have no snacks for school. (Went to Walmart for pickles and freaking forgot) I ask her to pick me up from Walmart and she said no. The other day I couldn’t breathe from my nose being so stuffy and she works 15 mins away from my school and ignored all my calls and texts to come get me from school. Like that shit hurts omg. Anyways I take out 100 to give her then decide to only give her 60 then 80 but ultimately 60 because my brother had no money for school. As I was home the lights went out nothing worked. They came back after a while and I went to my moms room and knocked on the door, her room door. That was once never locked but ever since her boyfriend came he put a lock on it and now they only open it when they feel like it. There’s a shower in her room so if the kids don’t shower before a certain time then that’s too bad for them, once the door is locked there’s No opening it. So while knocking the door I decided that if she didn’t open it she wouldn’t get the money but luckily enough for her she did. I handed her the 60 and she asked what it was for and I said for bills, it’s all I can give you. She said ok. I then told her next time I’m not gonna give her cash imma put it towards a bill myself. As I walked down the stairs I wanted to cry and still do tbh. My world feels so crushed. Why are we struggling so much. Doesn’t she feel its time to get a second job? Her boyfriend I’m not even sure if he’s a citizen but he’s forever working random jobs by his friends and never gets paid for it yet won’t find a regular job like tf? I’m contemplating whether or not to give her the 1,000 to atoraste help with bills but why should I? She doesn’t help me when I need help. If I give her the money it’s only a temporary fix until we’re back in debt again. My school semester is so hard, I need to maintain certain grades in order to pass and if I don’t I have to wait a whole year to do it again (pharmacy technician). Yet I still had to go get a job because I fear being in debt and having to ask ppl for money or pay them back. Like I’m so scared to not be successful, but it’s so easy to mess up in this program. Like ughhh