There was this one point around August/September of last year after I lost my virginity that I turned into a complete whore, I was talking to 13 guys at once at one point because I was just craving sex sooo bad after that first time. And I was very heartless during this time too, I had so many opportunities to be in loving relationships with good men but I would just make them fall in love with me and cut them off completely. I know, it’s terrible but I was a sociopath. I’m more in touch with my emotions but I feel like I’m involuntarily going back to my bullshit.

Soooo at work, there are about 20 new hires and most of them are so damn attractive and me having a naturally flirty personality has about half of them on my tail already. Yes, I love flirting and I think there’s nothing wrong with it at all but one of them asked me if I wanted to go get food with him after work one day and was VERY surprised when I said yes.

I didn’t realize he wanted it to be a date until he started paying for the food and complimenting me every chance he got, and once I caught on, it got heated really quickly.

No sex, but intense makeout sessions, and the funny thing is, he acted soooo innocent but he kissed like a fucking pro, it was insane.

But this is where I get to how I’m a bad person, the only thing I know about him is that his name is Andrew, he’s a year younger than me, was on the varsity wrestling team and now has an adorable lipstick stain scar on his chin and that’s about it. I have no idea what his last name is, didn’t get his number, no social media, nothing.

I mean it was really fun but I don’t know if I should go back to my old ways and have this happen with every new hire on my tail or if I should just back off and see if I can get to know Andrew better? Even though I’m moving away in August?

I’m a very spontaneous person and have never been able to keep a steady relationship going, I love change and who knows if I’m capable of love lmaoo