Wanting answers

I’m 36 & have been trying to have a baby for a few years. We finally got a positive pregnancy test in February! It was the most surreal & exciting day of my life. I went to doctor same day & they also did pregnancy test to confirm. I was 4 weeks & 6 days based on last period. My doctor said it was really important for pregnant women to get their flu shot so I went that same day & got it. 2 days later I started spotting & continued the next 6 days. On what was exactly 6 weeks pregnant, I had a miscarriage. I keep wanting to place blame somewhere or have an answer on what went wrong. I had prayed so long for this baby & it felt like God was finally answering. I keep thinking that flu shot was somehow to blame but of course I’ll never know. I go through lists of possible reasons & it’s torture! On the flip side I daydream of a precious baby I never got to meet & all the “what ifs” & “what might have beens”. I don’t really have anyone in my life who understands. They all try to be there & say the right things but they just don’t get it. It seems the universal response is “at least you know you can get pregnant”...which is NOT a comforting response BTW! They completely miss the point that I just lost MY baby...a child I’ll never get to hold in this earthy body. Of course I’m hopeful that I may still become pregnant again & will hopefully have a successful pregnancy but there is still a baby that’s gone! I know I’m not alone & others are dealing with similar stories. Sending prayers of comfort to each of you who are broken-hearted & grieving. My faith in Christ is the only true comfort I have, knowing I’ll get to meet my sweet angel in heaven one day.