I just broke up with my significant other. We had a 1 year relationship . It was white and black on and off all the time. I hurted deeply with him I did. Abused physically, cheated on , I stayed out of love n because I held on the the promise of be g with him n making things work till just recently it ended out of the blue, we fought about many important matters about us the relationship life etc . I never got the nerve to leave before from fright n also manipulation n from being the person I am thinking about other's first but we just broke up again after having a fight about something that was important to me , he didn't stop me he let me go , which before he would not do so , I'm confused . I'm scared. he was something important n some thing that filled my life I was alone before he was what I considered permanent in my life I never had a boyfriend whom I stayed with for that long . I'd been alone since 2013 after having a divorce from a bad .an too, but that's another tale. I'm 31 I don't know how to feel think we'll I'm trying .. It's just hard for me to accept what just happened. any advice . maybe some thoughts on this...