I don't know if I can do it again

just posting because I need to tell someone. Someone who doesn't know who I am and can't judge because my family is really judgemental and think that people need to "repent of their sins" if they get raped.

Freshman year I started doing this guy (we'll call him jacob because I don't like saying his name) after a few months of dating he started hitting me and eventually it escalated to rape. We dated for almost 2 years because I was scared to leave him. His family is rich and involved in politics so getting him in trouble isn't an option.

A few months after the abuse started he got really drunk with his friend and let him do what the wanted with me too. I tried to kill myself that night. The first attempt of many. The end of Sophomore year he moved to California so our relationship ended. After a lot of hard work I moved on (at least mostly). I met an amazing guy named Michael who helped me learn that not all guys are bad. Yesterday he came back and found me and hurt me. I'm not sure what to do. I know I need to tell my fiancee but I don't know how. After all the hard work I put into loving myself and healing he managed to break me again