Self esteem

Ladies! It’s me again!! Please help me ! What can I do to help my low self esteem I don’t even have sex with my boyfriend in the light I have to have to room dark I haven’t even let him see me during I feel like I’m a boring sex partner and I don’t want to feel like that because I’m a very sexual person I’m just not sure what to do to help I feel like I’m too fat or I look ugly or my faces will be ugly 💔 please help ladies I want to be more fun more comfortable with myself and my body