Abusive marriage. Help!

Nikki

Hi I’m a mom with twin toddlers and I can’t take it anymore. My husband is abusive, secretive and belittles me every chance he gets. Such a bully! I stand up for myself but it doesn’t help. He continues to emotionally break me down and I want to escape. I have contacted shelters and housing programs. everyone. Is full and or I’m on waiting lists. I left in Oct but recently came back in January since we agreed to get counseling etc .. well he backed out 3 days into me coming back home and it was the worst mistake! I have no family or friends near and nobody is financially able to take me and the twins in. I feel so isolated and worthless. Can anyone give me suggestions or even just having someone to talk to would be so nice right now. I feel so stuck and deserve better for me and my kids Thx 😢