So I think I’m starting to get PPD. I’ve been so anxious lately it’s made me physically sick. I have these terrible nightmares about awful things happening to my baby. I have horrible mood swings where I’m depressed, sad, angry, and then just numb. I still find joy in my baby boy but I feel my marriage is suffering. I feel so undesirable and self conscious. I feel like my husband isn’t pursuing me anymore and that just feeds my negative mindset. I know I need to see the doctor but It’s going to be a few days before I can. I am feeling like a crazy person lately and I’m hating it.