So I've hit another depression wave and this time it is hitting me real hard. It's been so difficult for me to even do my school work, I have absolutely no motivation to do anything at all. I'm so behind on everything and finals are coming up. I don't eat. I don't want any food, I never feel hungry. I have gone two weeks with eating one meal a day and that is because my friends make me eat when I am at school.

This depression is so bad that it's actually getting me sick. Like actually sick. I now am starting to get a fever and ear pain. I feel myself getting sucked in more and more each day.

I'm 19 years old and I've struggled with depression since I was 13, you would think I would know how to handle it by now. It feels new each time. it's feels worse each time. stronger.