I just want him home😪

So fair warning this is probably going to be a long post, it’s just so hard to keep it all bottle up.

My husband is in jail facing prison time, in a way he deserved it he fucked me over big time. I don’t want to go into specifics because it was really fucked up what he did. But we are trying to work on things and I can honestly tell by the look in his eyes and the way he’s been talking to me it’s not bullshit. I’ve been with him for 4 years we have a son and I’m pregnant with baby #2. Anyways the reason why I’m writing this is because it’s been really hard adjusting to pretty much being a single mom. My son is 3 and I know he knows something is going on, he always asks where his daddy is and I don’t lie to him I tell him the truth. But he has been acting out a lot throwing these mad tantrums, I’ve been trying to parent as much as I can but I feel like I’m failing miserably. I have literally no family here other than my in-laws and they won’t do anything to help me and my family doesn’t have the money to help me. I feel like I don’t have anyone on my side unless I’m right there in front of them. I’m like fighting so hard to hold my self together and not fall apart more than I already am for the sake of my son, but it’s like I can’t catch a break. Everyone always says “ohh we are always here if you need us.” But when I ask for anything it’s a fight, I understand everyone has a life that has nothing to do with me but why tell me I can ask for help when they don’t really mean it?? Anyways I just want to see if anyone else has gone through the same thing or something similar to this. Please no negativity, I will not answer it and delete the comment.