Ttc #1

God I’m so over everything!! I’m 9 dpo and I couldn’t help but test and of course a bfn!😭 who knew it was hard to just conceive a baby? All those years of being scared of getting pregnant and then when you want it the most, you can’t have it just yet! I just want to give up already. I just want my own baby. I’m so jealous of my friends who have their own baby girls. Most of my friends got pregnant at the same time and I’m so happy for them but I’ve been trying since last July and god, my heart aches every single time. I know I should wait until AF comes but it’s truly difficult. I just want god to gift me my own baby already. My fiancé is almost 30! I want to be able to gift him the title of being a father before he hits the big 30😭💕