I want to die

I officially have no purpose to live. Lol. I had plans to start school in june for the surgical tech program but just found out today that i didnt get accepted into it and have to wait a whole nother year to apply again. Another year of my life wasted. On top of that i cant seem to conceive either. I feel like i cant do shit right and i just don’t want to be here or anywhere else anymore. Wtf am i gonna do with my life now? At this point I’m just a waste of space and oxygen. I cant be a mother and i cant even go to fucking school to better myself. Im tired of making next to nothing and struggling to pay my fucking bills. I just wanted to get a decent job and not struggle for once in my fucking life. And not have my hubby pay for everything.