I am coming out to my family today. I will update when I can. Wish me luck.

*UPDATE*

Today in school I was freaking out and having an awful day. I was planning even in the event that I was going to be kicked out of the house. I have lived in Michigan all my life, it is my home. I was planning on having to move to Florida with my gradparents. They love me and execpt me for every bit of me. I am so glad that I have such wonderful friends and family that were giving me hugs and saying "If you need to, you come live with us as long as you like." My friend he just came up to me and gave me a big hug and a little kiss on the top of my head like a loving relative as been doing all their life. What was even more amazing to me was my art teacher who I have known for a period of 9 mounths came up to me after she saw I was having a hard time with it and just said "It's ok, you basically live in the art room anyway, I can just bring you food."

After a long day of assuming the worst and having a full blown panic attack. I was able to finally get both of my parents in the room with me which can be a hassle all and in itself. I told them that I was scared, but it was time. My father didn't even give it a second thought and grabbed my hand and pulled me into the biggest and warmest hug I have had in a long time. It took us 3 hours to come to the conclusion that I am going to see a christian therapist. My family is very religious based and are set in their ways. I don't want to see a therapist at all, but I was able to make a compromise with them. If I was going to see a christian therapist than we are all going to see an lgbtq therapist as well.

Thank you all for your kind words of encouragement. I definitely needed it to get thought this day. Much less, this is all over a period of 12 hours. I will keep updating when I am able. Thank you all so much I feel so loved and happy.

* UPDATE*

So sorry everyone that is has been so long. I have been so busy and I really needed to update. Ok, so I have a question that I need help with. There is this guy in my volunteer group and I KNOW he likes me. First off, I'M GAY🌈!!! Second off, he is 23 and I am 17. It is so creepy and I don't know what to do.😭 I hate being alone with him when we are at events togather and I always feel so uncomfortable around him. These are a few moments that I know that he has a crush on me.

1. We were at an event and it was 105°F and we had no shade. It was so weird and he asked me "You look hot, are you doing ok?" I thought oh well he is just asking because we are burning up. I told him " Yeah I am ok, I just wish my suit wasn't 3 layers of black clothing"( it is a cosplay volunteer group). His reply back was " Well, you could always take off a few layers😉"

Trust me he knows that if I take off a few layers my butt will be hanging out of my dress. Thank the heavens my Dad showed up and grabbed me to meet some kids.

2. In the group some of our suits are very hard to get on and off by ourselves. We were at an event and I so watching the table one day. It was the end of the event and he had to go home. He came over to me and asked if I could help.

I said" sure but, I have get back to the table." He said " Yeah thanks it won't take long." So we went to a building that only has bathrooms. I thought I was going to help with the armour outside. Nope, he went right on in and he said it was because there was a rip in the butt of his undersuit. So I help with what I could and before I could leave HE STARTED STRIPPING!!!!

I ran out as fast as I could and went back to the table. I pretend that nothing ever happened and try to avoid him altogether.

So my group is having a black tie event fundraiser in either November or September, I cannot remember. I don't have a date at the moment and he is going to be there. So should I bring one of my guy friend and only tell him that we are dating so be will back off or bring a guy friend that is like a brother to me (who is also already training for the Marines so he is pretty big💪) to scare him off???

I also picked out what I will be wearing. Please comment I need help badly. This is not me in the picture it is a picture of the dress I found on the internet.