*Sigh

Hello ladies,  I am expecting my first baby this December and all I can think about is how I'll be as a mother.  And let me tell you,  I'm scared. Is that normal? One thing about me is I'm a very reserved & private  person. I like to keep to myself and have privacy of what my life is. My husband not so much. He is surrounded by a big family and just likes being around people. We spend majority of our time with his family as my family is not close by.  He is also more open and likes to chit chat more than I do. There are times where he talks about our life (nothing bad) that people might see it as bragging. My husband is sooo sweet and sometimes very naive, but he likes to take pride of even the slightest things in his daily life. Idk it might be me, but I notice sometimes this raises some kind of envy from people. Just the fact that my husband and I do well, not just talking about money but relationship wise. Anyway I don't want a baby shower or gender reveal. I don't want to celebrate my baby's birthdays with people who are fake to me and my family. But at the same time I want to do everything for this baby.  How do I do it without so many unnecessary people.  Just me my husband and baby.  I wish we could go far away...