Anyone Up For An Afternoon Cry? 😔😭

You guys, I made it to the end of this semester and I'm moving forward into my second year of uni. I pulled an all nighter yesterday, went to bed at 7 this morning and got up for psych class at 9. Even though I was basically in zombie mode... I managed to get my ass there and in a seat.

We watched this video about racism and how it affects minorities and whatever, and my teacher drops the bomb on us that we don't have a final and that today was our last day of class... ya girl was psyched

So I skip my happy ass down to the financial aid office (which I've been meaning to do since the beginning of the week but... ya girl got flooded titty deep in work 🤗) to check on the loan I applied for.... only to have this lady tell me it's been

I had to look at her for a long time because the next fucking semester is starting in about two weeks and I don't have the funds to pay for it?! So, I'm calling my mom trying to see what I need to do and she's not making it any better because "I don't know, we'll have to see what we can do... we don't have the money" so I'm trying not to fucking panic at this point. The lady said they gave me an extra $4K so maybe I could work around that? WRONG....

So at this point, I'm staring all zombie like at my reflection in the vending machine that was taking forever to drop my Cheez-itz and M&Ms;, meanwhile I'm still in the phone with my mom-- both of us lost and confused 😔. And then this really cute red head came and bought a soda, and I swear he saw a bitch staring (at this point, my shy ass don't care) and he walks away....

So, I drag my happy ass on down to the diner, expecting to be able to whip myself up some waffles... because that's what I've been looking forward to since I first got up this morning (yes, zombies eat waffles) and I see the magnificent waffle machine, and the batter thingy and I go for it 🙌..... but the batter was too soupy 😭 I still tried it anyway, and I ended up making a fucking mess and a fool of myself so I gave up y'all... I gave up. Dejected, I grabbed myself a burger and fries and left

I get to my room, I'm depressed eating saying to myself, "you don't even need to be eating this, your fat ass needs to lose weight" all the while in feeling absolutely shitty about my financial situation... my stupid fucking insecurities/body issues are beating me black and blue...

I don't know what to fucking do. If any of you can, I don't know, give me advice, that would be lovely...