We had another great day and night last night. West finish work at 2 and he came home and we sat outside it was 19 degs. I turned on the football in the kitchen downstairs but it was playing only on Foxtel and then I went outside and we chatted over the issue about the cot West had talked to his cus and said we will not purchase and she had been cool with it then we tossed around baby names came across three boys names Noah, Roman or Seth and Noah or I have the idea of Asher Joaquin Boncoeur cos I like AJ from Backstreet boys when I was a teen. I’m not keen on Noah my ex colleague at Wantirna she has her son with that name n she’ll eat me alive she’s Irish n a bitch I mean the kind if you had a white dress in her wedding she kick u out. Then we talk about girls names West says Wesna my name n his or either Aliana (similar to his cus Sabrina though her daughter Alana) or Ariana like the singer he likes her songs... then elo laugh at Wesna and says it’s too much like how Mum n dad made my name just dropped the tops of mums n dads names changed Gilbert to Bert then Lorna to Lor and made the Gi Na... then she says Aliana and then Corinne has Aaliyah and she says well Ariana is good no issue there Asher Joaquin is nice but Asher people will say it’s like Usher... then west put down the tool he was fixing for dad and said I give up it can’t be fixed he had to go c Marquis for the same tool at our old house. So my parents and I sat down Elo was talking about her school and her classes and her major how it’s in Media teen studies for High school then I ran by her the idea of me taking over West business. And she says look, you never asked me to speak up about your career n what u should do and I’ve held this for 19 years n I’ll tell u wat I think. You’re afraid to step out sis u get yourself in a rut in a comfort zone of junior paid jobs that go now where and you sit and whinge. If I was you girl, I’d look at what I feel strongly about in life what did you just whinge two weeks ago to Mum and dad and what you feel strongly about. Three weeks ago you watch documentary on the drug ice sis and you’re passionate about the lack of health that’s being taught in schools for teens, you say you were badly treated by men since 19 and you’d been raped at 20 from online dating you turn up at a station and a man violate u wen it was a lie about going to a disco you’re a victim of domestic abuse and you never got to keep yourself for your husband sis keep a blog and you can submit these as essays for uni do a degree in youth work or a degree to teach teens about those things in life safe sex and transmitted diseases well that’s not an issue you’ve had think outside the box sis stop living pay check to pay check or text message to text message with no leave to support holidays or sick sis stop sitting in front of a phone and a computer wishing for your house with your husband and do something show your kid that Mum can make a difference to peoples lives stand at the front of those teens one day and lecture and teach about what you lived through and what they need to do to put education and chastity and their own mental well being ahead.. stop relying on a govt hospital to plz u and do what you are passionate for talk about your 10 days on the ward your 5 years on anti psychotic if you want sis I’ll ask at my faculty and see if they’ll take a new Mum next year in youth work or teaching higher secondary go on to teach at uni... that’s what I c is your potential don’t be at the mercy of banks for a home loan on casual pay with company bosses being rich from your work go up to a dam broker one day say you’re a youth worker/ uni lecturer teen life issues and get your loan that way... n she could have dropped a microphone right then and there